I obviously was not feeling Mr .March/October after our last date, and I knew he knew he screwed up. I just wasn't sure why. I didnt' really care either. I was going out the next night with a really good guy friend of mine to a Mardi Gras latin dance party. Which was awesome and I wasn't interested in giving Mr. March the time of day that day.
Well, randomly that afternoon I got a text from Mr. March that said, "I didn't shut my porch light off on you when you were leaving last night did I?" And I replied with I'm not sure. And then a couple hours later he got the balls to text and ask what was with the awkward kiss on the cheek thing, and was it intentional. I told him it was. I could tell he was fishing for me to talk to him about last night, but I wasn't ready. I didn't want him to ruin my day or my good time. So I went out with my buddy and had a blast!
I probably got home around midnight that night and was about to go to bed, and then I felt guilty. I felt guilty that I wasn't talking with Mr. March because I knew he wanted to know what was up, and probably wanted to know if I hated him or not. So I texted him and said we could either talk tonight or tomorrow before our writing session if he wanted to know what I was dissapointed in, and he opted for tonight.
He gave me a ring and we hashed it out for the next 2 hours. I basically told him everything that I was feeling and what I was hoping for, but didn't get in the date. He felt like a total ass. He knew he was being one and didn't deny it. He said he wasn't sure why he acted that way, but that I was really tough to read and he was trying to put on a hard ass front, because he thought that's what I wanted, going off of our first date, instead of going off of how the rest of the time we have spent together had gone. He knew he screwed up and said he had been kicking himself all day long for possibly screwing what we could have up cause he really likes me and only wanted to be there with me that night. Said he wanted to pay for everything, but didn't want to offend me because he know's I'm a really independent woman. Said he wanted the opportunity to treat me like gold how I should be treated and how he wants to treat me, and that he really is a romantic, he was just being stupid for a number of reasons. The blog had something to do with it too. Said if I just wanted to continue to be friends and write music together that he totally respected that, but that he wanted to have another shot if I'd let him. I wasn't really sure what I wanted. We kind of left it at that. I know that I didn't want to ever be treated or made feel that way again though, and I made that very clear. He understood.
So the next day I went over to his place for a writing session. There we were. There was definitely some tension in the air, but I meant business that night. I think I was coming off as a little bossy though. It didn't help that Aunt Flow just got to town, so that probably didn't help his cause the other night either, that she was on her way into town.
But by the end of the writing session we had both loosened up again and were having a good time. I missed this. This was the Mr. March I know. The really awesome and caring guy I thought I knew. And we kissed again. And it was nice. And then I unintentionally blubbered out that I didn't care about the blog anymore. I just wanted an excuse to go out with him again, but not the him that was out the other night, but the one I had come to know and grow really fond of. I didn't even mean to, but then I said I didn't want to go on any more dates of Christmas. I just wanted it to be with him, but they sure as hell better be better than the last one! lol He concurred. and it felt good.
I said good night and left feeling better. And then when I got home he ringed me again. It was already pretty late at this point. What in the world would he have to say to me? "I just wanted to call and say that I don't want to date anybody else either." huh? I was kind of taken aback. Either? Did I say that??? hot damn. I did, didn't I?
"Hello?" He muttered as I sat there in silence trying to figure out the turn of events and how it lead him to call me and say that. "Is this awkward?" He asked.
And then I snapped out of my hard ass-ness and said, "No. Not awkard at all." And then I can't believe I'm saying this but, "It's actually awesome. Yeah. Not awkward. Awesome." Looks like we are going to be exclusive.... alright. This is kind of cool. crazy.
I layed there in bed that night with a big grin on my face. I like this kid. He's fun. And he's got some balls. He's also not afraid to admit when he's wrong. It's actually pretty cute.
Since then, it has only gotten better. We haven't been on any official "dates" since then, but we've hung out with each other's friends together, I've hung out with him and his family. He's coming over next week for family dinner. He has been nothing but a doll to me. The last two times we hung out together we talked to the wee hours of the morning about anything and everything while he just really opened up to me and is showing me who he is and I really like it. We have a very raw honesty with one another, which is awesome and is really hard to find in another person. Mostly, we're becoming really good friends.
He wanted to take me out last friday on an awesome date he had planned, but I was so stressed for the weekend I opted to stay in because I really needed the down time. So I said he could stop by to watch a movie with me, and he picked up some ice cream sundae's for us! So sweet! I lost my chap-stick and the next day he was over with a new chap-stick for me. Is this guy for real? This is how every woman should be treated! I feel so lucky.
Please refrain from vomiting, but we call each other babe and baby. And as cheesy as that may sound, it feels really amazing. He is so supportive of me, and I of him, that it's almost unreal. Plus on top of it all, we are writing some really amazing music together and it's only going to get better! We decided we are not to the "having titles of boyfriend or girlfriend" stage yet, but no matter what comes of this I know I'm going to have a life long friend. Sometimes you just know.
I'll let you all know when he takes me out again... I know it's going to be better! I promise! And if for some reason it's not... he can suck it! lol
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